Agnes Hamida's blog

Naked.

There's many ways of feeling naked. If you expose yourself, if someone reads something that's private or if you're in a situation where you can't hide. I feel naked without make up. I don't use make up as a mask, but I'm still very uncomfortable without anything. I don't know what it is, even an unnoticeable bit of mascara makes a huge different. I don't even care much about make up, but without it I feel completely.. naked. Perhaps it's because there's absolutely nothing to hide behind. That it is.. too real. 

 

Without make up, but I'm cheating. This picture's too unclear to show it properly, and it's not a full portrait. I'm way too chicken to post a real one.

London Calling!

London Calling might be the least creative title when writing about London. I'm going to London for two weeks with a friend in the summer. I can't wait to go to ENGLAND. I've been to England 2-3 times before, but I was too young to remember anything - and I also spent a day in Orkney on my school trip with Statsraad Lehmkuhl. But this summer I'm going to be there, like.. really be there. Wow. I've started saving already. And I have 5000 NOK I got last year to spend at a festival I didn't attend. I really can't wait. I'm looking at pictures, making a London-playlist and writing down things I have to buy, see and do. It's pretty long already. 

 

 

  

London calling to the imitation zone
Forget it, brother, you can go at it alone
London calling to the zombies of death
Quit holding out - and draw another breath
London calling - and I don't wanna shout
But while we were talking I saw you nodding out
London calling, see we ain't got no high
Except for that one with the yellowy eyes

  

 

 
 

Song: London Calling - The Clash // Photos: source, source, unknown, source, source and source.

Susie's Book of Clichés.

The Hausfraus

Todays hero: Karoline!

She came back from Spain, and gave me LOADS of chocolate. Now I'll eat even more chocolate and go back to my knitting.

Many colored days: Grey.

Some days are yellow. Some are blue. On different days I'm different too.

 

You'd be surprised how many ways I can change on Different Colored Days.

 

Grey day. Everything is grey.. I watch. But nothing moves today.

 

Text: Dr. Seuss // Photos: source, source and source.

Winter sun and summer rain.

I'm endlessly tired of this..

And I'm desperately longing for this..

 

 Photos: Unknown

Ocean.

What I'm looking most forward to about the summer is the warmth and the sea. I love being in a boat, sleeping in a boat, and going far far away in a boat. We used to have a Saga 27, and we spent at least one week on the sea. Last week my father sold it. Now I really don't know what to expect of this summer. No boat.. AND I'm spending two weeks in England! I usually never travel, so this summer is going to be very different. London will be fantastic - but a summer without a boat? What to do without a boat? I already miss it. To sleep on the sea is the best thing ever. The salty scent, the movements.. It's great. And how on earth am I going to sleep in a boat when we're not in the possession of one anymore?

Photo: source

 I really miss the ocean.

I just don't know what to do..

..with myself - The White Stripes.

Tomorrow is the last change to apply to a school, and I am slightly panicing. I'm dizzy, confused and don't know what to do. I'm dead scared. And I left my camera at home.

 Photo: Unknown.

All movements go too far.

Quote: Bertrand Russell, a british philosopher, lived 1872 - 1970.

I'm completely hooked on Bertrand Russell at the moment. Many of his quotes are just buzzing around in my head, kind of annoying - but kind of nice too. I think I'll borrow a book about him at the library some day soon, because I have to pick up Agnes Grey of Ann Brönte anyways.

 

"I would never die for my beliefs because I might be wrong."

"If a man is offered a fact which goes against his instincts, he will scrutinize it closely, and unless the evidence is overwhelming, he will refuse to believe it. If, on the other hand, he is offered something which affords a reason for acting in accordance to his instincts, he will accept it even on the slightest evidence. The origin of myths is explained in this way."

"I think we ought always to entertain our opinions with some measure of doubt. I shouldn't wish people dogmatically to believe any philosophy, not even mine."

"If there were in the world today any large number of people who desired their own happiness more than they desired the unhappiness of others, we could have paradise in a few years."

"In all affairs it's a healthy thing now and then to hang a question mark on the things you have long taken for granted."

"In the part of this universe that we know there is great injustice, and often the good suffer, and often the wicked prosper, and one hardly knows which of those is the more annoying."

"Life is nothing but a competition to be the criminal rather than the victim."

"No one gossips about other people's secret virtues."

"Passive acceptance of the teacher's wisdom is easy to most boys and girls. It involves no effort of independent thought, and seems rational because the teacher knows more than his pupils; it is moreover the way to win the favour of the teacher unless he is a very exceptional man. Yet the habit of passive acceptance is a disastrous one in later life. It causes man to seek and to accept a leader, and to accept as a leader whoever is established in that position."

"Patriotism is the willingness to kill and be killed for trivial reasons."

"The greatest challenge to any thinker is stating the problem in a way that will allow a solution."

"The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time."

"The universe may have a purpose, but nothing we know suggests that, if so, this purpose has any similarity to ours."

"The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts."

"There is much pleasure to be gained from useless knowledge."

"There are two motives for reading a book: one, that you enjoy it; the other, that you can boast about it."

"To be without some of the things you want is an indispensable part of happiness."

"Aristotle maintained that women have fewer teeth than men; although he was twice married, it never occurred to him to verify this statement by examining his wives' mouths."

"To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead."

"Fear is the main source of superstition, and one of the main sources of cruelty. To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom."

"Man is a credulous animal, and must believe something; in the absence of good grounds for belief, he will be satisfied with bad ones."

"If I were to suggest that between the Earth and Mars there is a china teapot revolving about the sun in an elliptical orbit, nobody would be able to disprove my assertion provided I were careful to add that the teapot is too small to be revealed even by our most powerful telescopes. But if I were to go on to say that, since my assertion cannot be disproved, it is an intolerable presumption on the part of human reason to doubt it, I should rightly be thought to be talking nonsense. If, however, the existence of such a teapot were affirmed in ancient books, taught as the sacred truth every Sunday, and instilled into the minds of children at school, hesitation to believe in its existence would become a mark of eccentricity and entitle the doubter to the attentions of the psychiatrist in an enlightened age or of the Inquisitor in an earlier time."

And, the final, one of my favourites,

"Science may set limits to knowledge, but should not set limits to imagination."

Physalis peruviana.

Today has been good. Woke up to sun, and 25 celsius inside. It's still snowy outside, but I wore a dress nevertheless. And I'm not at all a dress person, so that says a lot.

 

I went to see my grandparents, and because of the great weather I walked all the way. It took me about an hour, but it was really lovely. And I stepped inside a store and bought a box of physalis. 

It's my favorite at the moment, and it's really cheap! And it tastes of summer and sun. I'm not sure if it's a fruit or some kind of a berry - but it's great.

 

At my grandparents I borrowed their sewing machine to finish a assignment. I had to re-design something, and I chose a very long skirt. Before it was so long it touched the floor when I wore it, now it's much shorter and a lot more fluffy. It has a high waist as well.

   

It was very cosy, and I had a great day. I've missed the sun so much! And the sundown was beautiful, and strange - it got reflected in a plane that went by. For a minute I thought the plane was on fire, but it was the sun all along.

 

I'll go to sleep soon, I have to wake up quite early tomorrow. Tomorrow is the day I'm actually (and finally) going to pick up my cellos.. It has been delayed way too long. So I'm going to spend the next day mostly in a car. I'm unfortunately one of those who cannot read while being in a car.. and that's too bad, 'cause I got a new book today. And a box of green tea, a cd collection from a norwegian cellist, a book about Statsraad Lehmkuhl and Time. 

 

The book is written by Anthony Trollope - and it's a collection, in a thousand pages, of his short stories. Can't wait to read it! The only bad thing about short stories is that I have to take a little break between each of them.. I always find it hard to not continue though the rest of it. And this one is quite heavy, will be a pain in the ass to bring it to school and so on. But it is, thank god, a pocket version and not a hard case. I think I'll read the first short story before bedtime. I have high expectations - hope it's not disappointing. 

Turn off the light, switch. 

This is my view right now.

Today I spent the day with a friend at her father's job. We were "shadowing" him. What we did was mostly drink a lot of coffee from the free coffee dispenser. And I taught her the international radiotelephony spelling alphabet. 

In rest of this day I've been studying to a test about the post cold war conflicts. It's not very hard, but I do have to admit that I'm struggling with the Yogoslavian part. I have to remember Serbia, Croatia, Bosnia, Montenegrin and Macedonia. And Kosovo - which I don't understand, is it an independent country or is it not?

 

The book says it declared itself independent after 2008, but at the same time it says that Yoguslavia turned into six different countries. And if you count Kosovo - it's seven! I'm super confused. 

 

This is my view right now, almost sleeping at the table. And the test is tomorrow. Grrrreat. Although, I can't do it worse in history than last year.. Guess that's some kind of a comfort?   ..yeah, not really.